"I was drawn to all the wrong things: I liked to drink, I was lazy, I didn’t have a god, politics, ideas, ideals. I was settled into nothingness; a kind of non-being, and I accepted it. I didn’t make for an interesting person. I didn’t want to be interesting, it was too hard. What I really wanted was only a soft, hazy space to live in, and to be left alone."
"For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered. But for those of us who can’t readily accept the God formula, the big answers don’t remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command nor faith a dictum. I am my own god. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state, and our educational system. We are here to drink beer. We are here to kill war. We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us."
"Do you suppose it’s so much easier to make conversation with someone you already know well than with someone you don’t know at all primarily because of all the previously exchanged information and shared experiences between two people who know each other well, or because maybe it’s only with people we already know well and know know us well that we don’t go through the awkward mental process of subjecting everything we think of saying or bringing up as a topic of light conversation to a self-conscious critical analysis and evaluation that manages to make anything we think of proposing to say to the other person seem dull or stupid or banal or on the other hand maybe overly intimate or tension-producing?"
David Foster Wallace
"Nationalism is our form of incest, is our idolatry, is our insanity. “Patriotism” is its cult. It should hardly be necessary to say, that by “patriotism” I mean that attitude which puts the own nation above humanity, above the principles of truth and justice; not the loving interest in one’s own nation, which is the concern with the nation’s spiritual as much as its material welfare—never with its power over other nations. Just as love for one individual which excludes love for others is not love, love for ones country which is not part of ones love for humanity is not love, but idolatrous worship."
Erich Fromm, The Sane Society
"The ontological fallacy of expecting a light at the end of the tunnel, well, that’s what the preacher sells, same as a shrink. See, the preacher, he encourages your capacity for illusion. Then he tells you it’s a fucking virtue. Always a buck to be had doing that, and it’s such a desperate sense of entitlement, isn’t it? Surely, this is all for me. Me. Me. Me. I. I. I’m so fucking important then, right?"
Rust Cohle, True Detective
Hart: I mean, can you imagine if people didn’t believe? The things they’d get up to?
Cohle: The exact same thing they’d do now - just out in the open.
Hart: Bull. Shit. It’d be a fuckin’ freakshow of murder and debauchery and you know it.
Cohle: If the only thing keeping a person decent is the expectation of divine reward, then brother, that person is a piece of shit. And I’d like to get as many of them out in the open as possible.
Hart: I guess your judgment is infallible, “piece of shit-wise.” You think that notebook is a stone tablet?
Cohle: What’s it say about life? Hm? You gotta get together, tell yourself stories that violate every law of the universe just to get through the goddamn day? Nah. What’s that say about your reality, Marty?"
Rust Cohle, True Detective
I think about my daughter now and what she was spared. Sometimes I feel grateful. The doctor said she didn’t feel a thing, went straight into a coma. Then, somewhere in that blackness, she slipped off into another deeper kind. Isn’t that a beautiful way to go out, painlessly as a happy child?
Trouble with dying later is you’ve already grown up, the damage is done, too late.
I think about the hubris it must take to yank a soul out of nonexistence into this… Force a life into this thresher.
As for my daughter, she spared me the sin of being a father."
Cohle in True Detective
"Now our struggle is for genuine equality, which means economic equality. What does it profit a man to be able to attend an integrated school when he doesn’t earn enough money to buy his children school clothes?" -MLK Jr
"Why are there forty million poor people in America? When you begin to ask that question, you are raising a question about the economic system, about a broader distribution of wealth. When you ask that question, you begin to question the capitalistic economy." -MLK Jr
"A smart woman does need a smart man, whether he’s a math genius or a plumber or a plumber who also happens to be a math genius. The biggest mistake you can make, in my opinion, is marrying someone who maybe loves your body and your face and the idea of you, but doesn’t actually enjoy hearing words drop out of your fat mouth. If you don’t feel intellectually matched and understood and met, then you should move on. The people I know who married bad intellectual matches for them are pretty fucking restless."
"I don’t care about whose DNA has recombined with whose. When everything goes to hell, the people who stand by you without flinching—they are your family."
Your apple kitchen
Corn boils in the summer
And breakfasts at Baker’s Square
with Aunt Shell and Linda
Walks in the park
Swimming with you at the pool
And playing cards with you and Dino
So. Many. Sleepovers.
Listening to “Strawberry Wine” in the backseat
The Decatur Park Singers
And church at First Presbyterian
Shopping with you and Aunt Shell at the crafter’s mall
Mother’s Day and Easter at Old Country Buffet
And Rachel’s Closet
Do you remember?
Your organ was my first experience with the piano.
You were the only grandma at my graduation from grad school.
You literally told me not to cry over my spilt milk.
Do you remember?
You taught me to crochet
And I’ve discovered
It’s like riding a bike
Once you learn
You never forget.
"So tonight to shush you how about if I say I have administrative bones to pick with God, Boo. I’ll say God seems to have a kind of laid-back management style I’m not crazy about. I’m pretty much anti-death. God looks by all accounts to be pro-death. I’m not seeing how we can get together on this issue, he and I, Boo."
Hal in Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace.
nah man life doesn’t get better when you educate yourself about feminism. life gets considerably harder. bc all of a sudden you pick up on all of these problematic things people you care about say and you start noticing every little way women are degraded and held down in society and you become hyperaware of how you speak and what you say and it’s really, really difficult and tiresome.